Veils of Vision

Proving Sida rhombifolia

Trituration proving, Nosy Be, Madagascar 24-9-2013

Provers: Prover 18, Gabriele, Prover 1, Prover 17.

C1

Prover 18 decided to be found for the proving this day.

Prover 17 discovers the plant in a corner on the floor, not intended to be

proved.

THE POOR WALLFLOWER.

An is crying immediately, feels compassion with the plant, nobody wanted it, it

is just accepted, tolerated.

Prover 9: “this affects me at the very moment, I am not the type who is in the

center, I am rather in the background, I have experienced this so often, this will

never change.”

Prover 18 feeling of being set behind

Prover 17 has taken the plant out of the corner. Everybody will be found, will be

found at the right time, nobody stays in the corner.

Gabriele: out of his own strength?

Prover 17: yes, and the fact that you said “ it will never change” surprised me a

lot

Prover 9: if there is no necessity…

Prover 17: feeling, I got you out of the corner. She was very inconspicuous. I was

doubting if this plant even would have been chosen for a trituration. But I was

attracted by this small plant.

Prover 17: now she is in the center, we are all concerned with this plant.

Prover 1 is still crying so Gabriele asks: it doesn’t help even though we see her

(the plant)?

42Prover 1: not yet.

Prover 17: I have a feeling that I have to scratch everything into the center.

Nothing should remain on the curb. Everything is very precious, should be in

the center. I like doing this, I’m glad doing this and I have the feeling that the

plant likes it as well.

Prover 18: has a feeling of sleeping and slow down.

Prover 9: I’m feeling a kind of an agitation, as if I had taken some stimulating

drugs. But this agitation isn’t like that I have the strength to do something.

Prover 1: since the “scratching everything into the center” the feeling isn’t as

horrible as it was before; I feel more calm.

Prover 9: I feel still totally restless, strong palpitations, in contrast to Prover 18

who feels calm. A certain heaviness is spreading over my chest.

Prover 1 feels hopeless, she is sure nothing will change.

The remedy has something to do with the stomach

Prover 18: I have a very lethargic feeling, but I know, if I would get up it would

be better.

Prover 1 feels better when triturating, when she act is acting

Prover 18: but why should I get up?

Prover 17 observes how the nature is moving, the leaves and grasses around us.

She feels guilty and asks how it could be, that she feels so well while the others

feel so bad, are so sad.

We forgot to give in the next tranche of milk sugar.

Prover 18: “why should we do that?”

Prover 17: “the plant gets on with very little, and now she is allowed to take

more.”(milk sugar)

Prover 9: is crying, ”this is a highly emotional thing which we are triturating.”

Jn arrives, he had troubles to find our proving group, because we are in a dis-

tance to the others, we are happy he found us and we welcome him friendly

Prover 9: I have the feeling of an outsider.

Prover 1: a lot of compassion, nobody wants the plant, no one recognizes her,

no one values her, she is not appreciated.

Prover 9: the plant is not weak, it is fragile, but it has a lot of power.

Prover 17: it is so tough, that it can wait until it will be found.

Prover 9: not everybody can be number one, but the plant is strong, it survives

the jungle.

We taste the leaves, the blossom: slimy, not offensive, not special.

Prover 18: this restriction feels now unattractive.

Prover 17 and Mo stand up and walk around, Mo gets something to drink.

Prover 17: I have a feeling now I’m standing that I can look over the edge of a

plate. There are things too. There is life outside. But in order to see this you have

to stand up. If I don’t get up I cannot see nothing in the pit. (while triturating)

it doesn’t feel like as if I would push it at the edge but I should get at the edge, it

43should get outside into life.

Prover 1: it doesn’t feel so heavy any more.

Prover 18: it was very good that we did something, went into action, and the

visit of Prover 23 was very good.

Prover 17: when I scratch it back into the center some rest remains at the edge,

I want to put everything back into the center so afterwards it can come outside

again.

Prover 9: the lethargy is better now. We aren’t wallflowers by no means at all! We

are individualists! We do things if we like to and how we want to.

Prover 1 feels good, even in the outside position.

She knows her value, no matter if others notice. That means she feels strong in

herself.

Prover 9:I am still restless, feeling of heaviness, but less.

Prover 17: at the beginning there was such a complete hopelessness. But now it

has changed. There is hope now, action, we will doing something new.

Prover 9 stands up too.

Prover 18: let’s see if he will find us (Prover 20), she is waving to him. He saw us,

but he is not coming even he saw us.

The wallflower has to step outside itself, has to call someone´s attention.

C2

We are all very communicative, got all outside our huge trituration bowl.

Prover 18: An isn’t complaining about banalities anymore, when we are talking

about other stuff (than the flower).

Prover 17 puts the flower in our middle.

Prover 9: there are ants everywhere. (because of them she has to stand up)

Prover 17: they want your spot

Prover 9: I have to defend my spot.

Prover 18: I have a feeling that the wind is important

Prover 17: me too.

An has the feeling that the plant is standing good, is strong

Prover 17: I have a feeling we are making a fuss. It’s like as if it could tip. It’s

enough now, it’s too much of attention. She is strong anyway and is no wallflo-

wer.

Prover 9: it is not enough to stand in a corner and to be strong. You need accep-

tance as well!

Prover 1: I don’t think so at all. I almost get angry.

Prover 18: it made us all very happy to get up, to communicate.

Prover 23 is with us again and our moods change, we feel more lively and we

can report.

We are talking about C. who managed the transformation from an unfulfilled

love, destroyed by an incredible pain and shock, into the foundation of a new

community, to get people out of their lethargy and hopelessness, do something

44good, bring people together.

Prover 17 took over the part of C. by finding us and the plant and brought us

together.

The three of us are the ones who wanted to be found, but also knew, that they

wanted this plant and no other one.

It was Prover 17 who founded a new group and picked the plant out of the cor-

ner from the floor.

It needs a lot of strength to get the Madagass people out of their lethargy, their

poorness,

They feel special, somehow proud, they feel it is ok the way as it is. They are

happy in their way, who is the one who gives the straightedge for them and who

judges, who really knows what’s best for them?

Perhaps it is “ leave us in the corner”

Leave us in our world und values it’s not that we must have more, we have the

whole, our way of our whole life.

But the poorness and the darkness and the hopelessness will stay, from our

point of view.

So we find as well the 2 poles, the happiness and the hopelessness.

We are different, we want to be seen, we wave to Prover 20.

Prover 9 still feels the pressure on her chest, she doesn’t feel relief, it doesn’t feel

good. Something heavy lies on her and she cannot enjoy or feel happy. It is like

closed up. She wants to give it away, say by by, but doesn’t know how to do it.

Prover 18: Doesn’t feel so sure anymore, is maybe not strong enough to get in

touch?

Prover 1: Somebody has to find me, alone I’m not strong enough.

Need to get out of the lethargy.

45Prover 18: Looking back we were happy that Prover 23 visited us.

Prover 9: feels not good, a heavy feeling on the breast, acting feels good, tritura-

ting.

Prover 17: how can I help you, what can I do for you?

Prover 9: “there is a stitching at my left wishbone, like short needles, 0,5 cm, I

hope it will clear away soon, I have no idea how you can help me, I don’t just

want to wait, because of the pain the weight on the breast has gone.”, there are

again ants around Ga´s sitting place, they force her to stand up, to move, there is

a need of a harasser, which moves us, we need something from outside,

“but I can do something for my own, I don’t need you, I can do it by myself,

that you ask me is wonderful, you take my condition serious, you recognize me,

the solution should come out of myself, I don’t know it, the pain is transfor-

ming the heaviness and the weight, my crying relieves. The solution is to go out

of the lethargy, create communication.

One has to take the opportunity, one has to realize, that the opportunity is on

hand, in ourselves must be the wish to be found.

C3

Prover 17: we are something different, we are not Africa.

Prover 9 is tasting the plant, it is very slimy, but feels dulcet. You have the feeling

you do something good to your body.

Meanwhile some blossoms of the flower are opening. So we put it out of the

shadow into the sunlight. The covered one is opening the most.

Prover 17: I want to be seen because of my value as a human and not because of

something I’m missing. To be seen as a human, as itself.

Within some minutes (in the sun) a second blossom opens up.

Prover 18: everything which got us out of our lethargy was coming from outsi-

de.

But we don’t agree with the fact that it has to come from outside.

People have to recognize that there is a chance.

Prover 9: In order to be seen anyway, one has to be willing not withdraw oneself.

Prover 18: to honor the beauty which is behind.

Unique, beautiful, special.